A bad day at the office, time for a break

I've not been feeling too great this week in general. I haven't played much cash and instead been playing a few MTT's but not done that great at them. Came 11/762 for pennies in one comp on Full Tilt but that was about it. Sigh for Martin 'The Badger' Malone coming 10th in the WCOOP event. So close to a big score, but a great run deep performance from him and I hope a big score is just around the corner for him! Also good luck to Anton 'The Cat' James back at the tables this weekend, hope you win the world buddy! Also it has been very tough times of late for Toby Lewis at the moment and he came 3rd place in the Party Poker World Open too, run better! Congrats to Sam Trickett who won the event after he got unlucky in the EPT, think he was due a bink.

Just had a terrible night of poker in a short session :-( I had a few beats early on and then I couldn't handle them and went mental! I stacked off like 3 or 4 times which is just madness and went a little over my daily stop loss. I hate to admit it but I was tilting and so effectively becoming free money. This should never happen playing full time. I think I'm having confidence issues at the tables recently and so I've not been on top form. I've spoken to my mentor and he has banned me from playing until he thinks I'm ready. I think this is sensible as I need to be ready to play and I need to be back to my best so I can dominate again. Think I had similar issues before I went to Vegas and I wanted to make the money to pay for the trip and it was in the back of my mind in every session and I couldn't play my best. But when I came back and I felt great and had the 'hunger' to play and I destroyed the games and did really well. I need to find that again before I play again.

I'm glad I have this blog because it's a great way to vent and also for anyone that ever thinks about playing full time it can give you an insight into what it is like. Yes, poker can be great to do instead of a job and the money can be good but there are lows. These lows can be awful and you can get down. However, if you can deal with these correctly they can make you stronger :-)

So now I'm down this month, let's hope I can turn things around and my next post is a positive one. I think I need a great big hug from Dan Rudd to make me feel better so we can be 'blog friends'!